I am tired. I'm SO busy being a mom/2nd grade teacher/high school choral director/homemaker/wife/daughter that I feel like there are never enough hours in the day to get everything done. Mike continues to be a wonderful partner in crime as we navigate this new life and for that I'm very thankful. The twins seem to be ok....definitely having some emotional outbursts from time to time but who can blame them? I feel like I want to start crying almost every moment of every day. Things continue to get scarier with the number of cases and death..the Rocc Flock continues to practice good social distancing skills.
I am reminded of how I felt mentally and physically when the twins were newborns. They were born on June 5th and we found out 6 days later that my mother had stage 4 cancer. I then spent the next 6 months navigating between being a first time mom to premature twins and trying to first save my mother by scheduling doctor's appointments and radiation appointments to then dealing with the fact that my mother couldn't be saved. I was physically and emotionally drained. One difference is I couldn't eat during that period of life -- usually when things stress me out, my appetite completely goes away. This is different in that I can't seem to stop snacking and with my limited physical activity each day, I'm finding it hard to keep those pounds off. I'm not sure which way I prefer....
Anyway -- I told myself the other day that I have felt like this before. I am exhausted, my eyes hurt, my brain hurts, I am physically and emotionally drained again. But I have to keep moving. Mike and I often say we don't know how we survived the months from June 5, 2012 when the twins were born to December 29, 2012 when my mother ultimately passed away. But we did. So now I find myself feeling the same way -- not sure I can keep this pace up (I wake up at 4:30 AM and go to bed around 10:30 each night and I don't stop thinking/working/teaching/mothering/cleaning during that time) but I have to keep moving. Always moving forward....
Onto the fun stuff:
We had so much fun on April Fool's Day with this new thing from Google. Poor Gammy thought the twins were in danger!
This is what I woke up to!! GAH!
Snapchat is still a favorite.
Rainy days are hard for everyone.
Panther was having a particularly bad day.
This animal didn't fair too well either....
Homeschooling is still pretty fun. We worked with measuring things....
Making sure Aunt Bonnie knows we still have this -- the twins are enjoying measuring it each day. Thank you!
The twins teachers are doing a wonderful job with their remote learning. THANK GOODNESS FOR TECHNOLOGY!
Reading lesson while baking an amazing pound cake.
Yum yum
Neighborhood scavenger hunt was pretty fun. THANK GOODNESS FOR PINTREST!
Yup -- roads are now more like sidewalks.
More April Fool's Day fun...we hid Daddy's cell phone...
Do you see it??
Bahahahah!
I snagged these homeschool books from Barnes and Nobels before it closed. They've come in very helpful! I am SO SICK OF SCREENS!!!
Allie has enjoyed her zoom sessions with her teacher.
Cam finished a puzzle from Esther Mimi!
Daddy and Allie did some morning yoga.
Cam's Cub Scouts is trying to continue...Michael has taken over these duties and helped the twins make some pretty awesome boats.
We ventured to Pipersville to give the boats a float.
Poppy practicing good social distancing skills.
The twins continue to get more and more into bike riding.
The kitties continue loving us home all day...
The twins have started helping me with all of the grading I have to do. I told them I used to LOVE helping my mom grade papers when I was a kid!
Daddy is an amazing teacher....even in sweatpants and a sweatshirt!
Mr. Rocchi's Acrostic assignment
Tadpoles are growing...no legs yet.
Allie helped me with some grading as well!
I've loved FaceTiming with residents at the Personal Care Home. It's truly a highlight of my day. Thank you to Amber Cook for helping me to connect to her amazing residents.
We played in front of our neighbor's mother's window at her nursing home facility. The Rocc Flock had an awesome time and I think Miss June enjoyed watching us play.
We discovered this park. AWESOME!
General Trexler's Summer Home!
Allie and I have started the tradition of girls night on Saturday evening. We kicked it off with watching the first Hannah Montana movie. It was awesome! The boys played video games and watched a show together upstairs!
Sunday School (Dig) continues to be a nice thing on Sunday mornings.
We made a very safe/social distancing trip to Wyalusing today. Bah-Bah has been stockpiling toilet paper for us. We came home with 80 rolls of toilet paper, 4 rolls of paper towels and 6 dozen eggs. It was good to see him but he's still a huge source of anxiety for me. I got him an iPad for his birthday and hope we can get the FaceTime to work on it. I find myself welling up with tears as I write this...I am just so darn worried about him and want to keep him safe....but am struggling with the fact that we live so far away. I am beginning to gather information and make plans for if he gets the virus. Again -- the feelings of trying to save my mom are all coming back. I wasn't successful with my mom and this is all weighing very heavily on me.
Onto fun stuff again...a cat....in a door of a playhouse.
Video of Cam playing the piano. Both twins continue to be a joy to teach the piano to. Another highlight of my day. Allie should have Polka down this week and I'll add her video to the blog next week!
AND THE MOST AMAZING THING ON THIS POST....
Our good friend, Pete Johann, has posted a fun challenge on Facebook. Basically he posts challenges every couple of days and people submit videos. Whoever ends up with the most points at the end will win either $50 in alcohol or get to donate $50 to a charity of choice. True Rocc Flock challenge....we are taking this thing on hard core!!
Oh Kelly, the videos and pics were great. One thing I have not done is broke down, my explanation for this is, which I have never been very religious more spiritual, but there are so many things out of our hands. I was a worry wart growing up. Multiple trips to doctors to find out what was wrong with my stomach after my dad passes away. Just over the last 5 years so much has changed that I have learned to let stuff go. It makes me emotional to think of what could happen to people I love it they contract the virus but I keep myself busy and am thankful everyday that I wake up. The snacking I am so on board with you, we need group wake up calls to FaceTime workouts for motivation. You are strong and you will get thru this like everyone else. My mom had always said this to me when I was totally stressed. " how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time" Be kind to yourself Kel. Love ya
Hang in there Kelly! You are doing great. Loved your Home Alone video!!!!
ReplyDeleteOh Kelly, the videos and pics were great. One thing I have not done is broke down, my explanation for this is, which I have never been very religious more spiritual, but there are so many things out of our hands. I was a worry wart growing up. Multiple trips to doctors to find out what was wrong with my stomach after my dad passes away. Just over the last 5 years so much has changed that I have learned to let stuff go. It makes me emotional to think of what could happen to people I love it they contract the virus but I keep myself busy and am thankful everyday that I wake up. The snacking I am so on board with you, we need group wake up calls to FaceTime workouts for motivation. You are strong and you will get thru this like everyone else. My mom had always said this to me when I was totally stressed. " how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time" Be kind to yourself Kel. Love ya
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